I want to live.

I need to find some incentive to live.I need to reclaim my lost goals and desire.I need my life back.

I want to live...

No bakwas.Back to life.

Whom are you fooling around?. You had a dream to serve the nation. You had a dream to be an civil service officer.You left the job for that.You took up the challenge in Delhi.But, now you are down because no one bothers to call you.Hence, you feel lonely here.Stop this bullshit will you and get on with life.

If you have dream protect it.And, stop giving lame reasons.Its up to you to do it or not and take responsibility for your failure. And, own your failures.

Folly Affirmations

"I will never give up".
"I am determined and committed"

All affirmation of this genre are easy to profess and difficult to live with.One would need an indomitable spirit of confidence and composure, which is a rarity and one who own it, makes it large.

So as I hit the new low of my life, I stand alone.No regret.

Between, today I downloaded my e-admit card.Have chalked out a macro plan till exams.Importantly, I have to gain back my lost mind.I need to believe that, for whatever happens I will have to fight it out alone.

Also, I need to think about a Plan-B. No, its not a sign of paucity of self-belief but just being thoughtful of the surprises life can throw at you.

Feels a lot better than last two days.I spoke to Appa and Ammi. Infact, they are the only one's (also my sister) who have stood besides me at all odds.

Have to also improve on my reading and comprehension skills if I have to compete at any level.As I push myself more to study, I understand my reading skills wobble and I fail to comprehend what I read and further, my mind gets lost in some random thoughts.

I know it sounds like some psychological problem.However, I need to get get around it as soon as possible.

Relinquishing The Hindu has also affected me adversely. I have to make it habit to atleast read the online editorials.

How I wish I was back to me normal best with a composed mind.

Internet has also had it pound of flesh.I have to utilize it, rather than using it as a option to vent off my stress. 


Between, spend some time on facebook. Tellingly, it is marriage season.One of my school friend Govind says "since his intelligence has touched new low level he decides to marry".I wonder what really he wanted to prove with such propositions.Anyhow, different people has different thoughts and as a rational being we should respect all view points.


So thats it pretty much for the day.And, long night awaits me, let me try making it little bit productive.

Bye for now. 

     

Himalaya to Climb

When I started on this journey I felt I would complete it with ease.Now, things have started to change. I feel lost in this ocean.

Kannan Chettan was right. He said " its a long journey and get support from wherever u can".

Sadly, I don't have the habit asking for help even if badly required.This is something inherent in me.

I think I should say good bye to my recluse life at Delhi and get back home.

Fading away

Got thrashed with Mock 3.

Geography looks like Sanskrit and Current affairs German.

Suddenly, everything starts spinning around me.

I am losing faith in myself, have I made the right choices? Have I put the people dependent upon me at risk?

As these questions stare at me, I stand alone.How much I wished for someone to be around, atlleast for a phone call.

As they say: "true friends are those who stay along at the time of adversity".

Chelsea pulls a rabbit out of the hat!! Surprise

And, Chelsea produces a surprise against Barca in the 1st Leg of the CL.One may call Drogba an undeserved scorer but the commitment and 100% effort put up by  the team as a whole is worth mentioning.Ramires has truly become a Chelsea Man, as he contributes when Chelsea needs him the most.Yesterday, he produced the magical run after getting the long ball pass from Lampard to thread a perfect cross for Drogba to finish.Furthermore,Cech,Cole,Cahill,Mikel Terry all were the Heroes of the match.They produced their magical moment of appreciation.So, In all, 1-0 is a deserving score for the grit and discipline shown and moreover not being intimidated by Barca.Barcelona had 72% overall ball possession and made 24 chances but could not get the ball to the net.Well, putting it clinically, what matters for a win is how many goal you scored.If ball possession was the game all about probably you would need the Post!.

Chelsea Go to Nou Camp with this slight lead but the favorites Bracelona still remain.On a lighter note if chelsea plans to touch the ball in Nou Camp probably they would need carry one separately for themselves.

Anyways, Good show Chelsea hope you would be able to replicate they same result in Nou Camp.

Geography -physical features

I took a break( sort of ) for 3 days.And, today I studied some geography. Its going on a snail's pace.

Its becoming really difficult for me, and therefore this entry to jolt down what I retain.So here it goes.

The main physical features of India are

1.Northern mountains
2.Northern Plains
3.Plateau
4.Desert
5.Coastal Plains
6.Island

1.Northern mountains

It consists of
a.Karakoram range - north of Indus River
b.Central Mountain ranges / Himalayas
c.Purvanchanl Ranges


Himalayas can be studied

1.Latitude wise 2.longitude wise

1.Latitude wise.

1a.Himadri/greater Hmalayas- Contains all the tallest and snow covered ranges.eg: Mt Everest,K2 etc.
Average height-6400 m

1b.Himachal Himalayas/ Lesser himalayas- Avg height-4500m, tourist places like gulmarg,sonmarg etc are situated in this mountain ranges.

1c.Shivalik Range- Avg height-900 to 1100m- Dharamshala, Riskikesh etc are situated here.

2.Longitude wise(from west to east)

2a.Kashmir Himalayas -between river Indus and Sutlej
2b.Kumaon Himalayas- between river Sutlej and Kali
2c.Nepal Himalayas-between river Kali and Teesta
2d.Assam Himalayas- between river Teesta and Brahmaputra


3.Purvanchal Himalayas Consists of
3a.Patkai Range
3b.Naga hills
3c.Mizo hills
3d. Garo Hills
3e. Khasi hills
3f.Jaintia hills

The main Mountain ranges in India are

1.Himalayas
2.Purvanchal
3.Eastern Ghats
4.Western Ghats
5.Aravali Range
6.Vindhya range
7.Satpura Range

 2.Northern Plains

River wise
2a.Indus and its tributries viz Jhelum,Chenab,Ravi,Beas,Satluj-Punjab & Haryana  region
2b.Ganaga and its tributries viz yamuna,ghagara,kali,kosi,teesta,son,ghandhak,chambal- Delhi,UP,Bihar,WB etc
2c.Brahmaputra- Assam Valley plains

Relief wise:
2d.Bhabar:pebble region at the foothills of the Shivalik
2e.Tarai: Marshy Area-where the streams   reappear
2f.Bhangar- Upland area-West of Kanpur- Old Alluvial soil area
2g.Kadhar- Low land area-East of kanpur- New Alluvial Soil area.


3.Plateau

3a.Central Highlands

3a.a Malwa plateau
3a.b Chotanagpur plateau- Mineral rich and Backbone of our economy/Industries
3a.c Deccan Plateau- Black soil region
3a.d Meghalaya Plateau
 

4.Deserts

4a.Cold Deserts- ladakh region and Gangotri glacier region
4b.Hot Deserts - Thar Deserts, futher bi-furcated into arid and semi-arid regions.


5.Coastal Plains.

5a.Saurashtra Coast- from Okha to Mumbai
5b.Konkan Coast- from Mumbai to Mangalore
5c.Malabar Coast- from Mangalore to Tuticurin
5d.Coromandel Coast- from Tuticurin to Vizag
5e. Utkal Coast Coast- formVizag to Paradip
5g.Banga Coast- from Paradip to end of the Indian Coast line.
 

6. Islands

1.Andaman and Nicobar- Volacnic Islands
2. Lakshadweep- coral reef Island.

There it goes ....

UHC,DMA & Freedom of speech.

UHC: Universal health coverage has to be provided by the government and India cannot depend on Pvt sector to fulfill this moral obligation.

It is highly encouraging to know that India plans to spend 2.3% of its GDP on health sector in the twelfth FYP.The high level expert group of planning commission has chalked out a good plan to roll out UHC, its time for our executive to pull up their socks and deliver.

Along, with a massive spending in health sector, quality assurance mechanism should be built into the system.National accreditation board for hospital and health providers does make an effort in this regard but existence of multiple regulatory bodies and legislation makes things confusing.Hence, a requirement of single regulatory institution with clear mandate is the need of the hour.

Also, there is a need for a national level procurement agency.This body should be responsible for obtaining medicines at relatively lower cost and distributing to the required centres.Since, health is a state subject, centre has to build a consensus on this front.Nevertheless, the aim should be to provide availability, accessibility of medicines in all corners of India at an affordable price.         


The recent earthquake and the subsequent tsunami warning tested the preparedness of the state.Since,2004 disaster India is equipped, with better warning systems and with setting up of specialized authority- Disaster Management Authority at the centre and the state level.However, only consistent maintenance of the disaster management rapid force, in terms of response and ability we can say" we are prepared".

West Bengal tops the news papers for all the wrong reasons ever since Mamata Banerjee has sworn in as the CM.Recently, is her authoritative act of censoring the text books, filtering the type of newspaper subscribed for the libraries, and furthermore, arresting the people who lampoon her, is paranoia..This is undemocratic in any sense of the word.Art 19(1) guarantees every citizen freedom is speech and expression.Ms Banerjee's act is sheer show of state power.  







  

alone admist the crowd..

Was feeling awfully low.Can't think of any specific reason.

Logged on to FB, thinking to find someone to talk to.

Was happy to find one of my intimate friend online.Pinged him.Was so eager to have a chat.However, He seemed busy, though he replied with some delay and as was many on Fb.They all seemed happy to be-Posting, commenting, sharing.Why can't I be like that.

Happiness has truly been a lost old  friend.

First time, I felt so alone in that crowded place called FB.

My Dream house..

Away from crowd..away from world... just want to be here with my family... this is heaven for me..

At 26, I'm yet to settle, with career and life.Rather, in a bad shape.A lot to achieve and everything looks so far.However,  losing hope is unlike me.

Tomorrow is yet another Vishu.And, the coming year is so crucial for me, as it would place me on an orbit probably for rest of my life.

Happy Vishu to all.