And it rained.

Its been so long that it rained here.And when it did, its with a bang.When those huge droplets touches the virgin earth, it gives out an rustic aroma.It feel like rain god has blessed the mother earth and the lesser mortal like us.

I stood on the veranda as it rained heavily.I enjoyed every bit of it.

It fills me with inexplicable happiness.Something, which was lost in time.

its all about being in love and being loved.

One should be fortunate to have someone who loves you sincerely.

I am very happy for my friend, Varun, who have found his life partner.I wish him all happiness in days to come.

Happiness

Ankit gave me a call today, and I was surprised to hear his voice for it was so long that we spoke.It took some time, for reality to sink in.We were fast friends in college and throughout our time in Reliance, we shared similar life experiences & kept  good relationship.It wouldn't be wrong if I say he was my best friend. Later, he took to pursue his MBA and I to Civil Service preparation.And my self imposed solitary life changed things  around.I have only myself to blame for not keeping in touch with my friends.

However, after hearing from him my happiness had no leaps and bounds.Suddenly, I wished I was back in BIT Mesra, hostel 5B, where we had shared neighboring rooms.Those movies, early walks to college, talks- chit chats ..entire gamut of activities. all seems as if, it just happened yesterday.

Hope to seen him when he comes back to India.

A new begining

bygones are bygones.

And here I am to start everything afresh.

End of my life.

Touched new low in life

1. Resigned from good paying job
2.Did not clear Civil Service prelims for which I have been studying since a long time.
3.lost confidence in continuing any further
4.Financially very unstable back home

Badly fucked up with life.

fallacy of Natural science

Why is natural science an ever evolving revered field of study??

Probably its because proponents of science believe that its has a self corrective mechanism and therefore, cannot hide the truth from revealing itself for all times.

But , then what is this self corrective mechanism???

The procedure adopted that verifiable truth only can be incorporated as science and also by premising its discoveries with mathematical equations.

These mathematical equations and backing often tends to opine/create  truth absolute.

Absoluteness is something that cannot be attained and its unnatural.

However, with  time scientist are obsessed with creating absolute mathematical model and empirical proposition.

And, consequently are trapped in the vicious circle of finding the absolute, but , the fact of the matter is the absolute is non attainable.

No, I'm not being pessimist but  realistically absoluteness is absent.

Therefore, mathematical representation, backing  science holds no real sense.

The more one falls on mathematics for answer the more he is trapped in the limbo of unattainable.

july 17th, 2012

Indian Middle class

Jagdish bhagwati and Arving panagariya in a syndicated article "the bell tolls for congress party" writes that the aggrieved middle class will vote out the congress in 2014.They perceive that the middle class feels that their economic interest is threatened by  ill governance and corruption and this will manifest as angry votes that will push out congress.

No one can categorically say that middle class in India is a homogeneous group.Infact it is layered with high degree of caste and community characteristics- commonly know as "identity politics".

But, if shedding these traditional differences if they vote on economic understanding of the situation, then one can definitely say the celebrated authors were right.

Simultaneously, it also means that our so called middle class is better informed and evolved citizens then.Having said that, is then this elated scenario due to the efforts of the ruled government for the last 5 years.For, its because of them this portion of India tasted the fruits of economic prosperity.If that is true should you vote them out ??

Considering the global gloomy economic scenario and coalition limitation of the government, can't we excuse the congress for the slump? And, about corruption, we need Lokpal- an independent body.This is beyond party and any election. 

Is 21st century- "century of GAS" ??


With the advancement of technology more and more unconventional gas reserves are discovered and exploited for daily use."Shale gas" is the main contender on this unconventional segment.US has large reserve of it and is utilising it to the maximum as an alternate fuel.

IAE reports that the gas reserve has double since a decade and prospect looks extremely positive.It would definitely reduce pressure on oil.

But, transportation and storage are problems regarding gas.It is also capital intensive when thinking of liquifying it or developing a pipeline network.

Because of these reason, presently, the gas market is regional and restricted to customers who make long term contract commitment.

However, with time distance and worries of this kind would reduce.This is precisely the reason IEA is so bullish about the gas industry.Moreover, it is environment friendly.


China Model of development

Is the Chinese model of alternative development  worth replicating ?. A Chinese scholar calls it civilisational state  and some say it is appreciable balance between free market system and a fully state controlled system.

For the last 30 years china has been recording amazing growth.But, of late, it is cooling down.As the other major Asian economies, which experienced growth and then flattened, china has also entered this phase.

 Laws pertaining to de-listing of companies

 1.Securities contract(regulation) act 1956-SCRA
 2.Companies Act 1956



 

And, finally, that's it.

Have I reached there.

is it right to call it, a thoughtful give up?

does this lazy period meant, I am not meant to be there?

probably, its too much pot-holes to be filled.

And, I give up- can't read anymore.

I want to live.

I need to find some incentive to live.I need to reclaim my lost goals and desire.I need my life back.

I want to live...

No bakwas.Back to life.

Whom are you fooling around?. You had a dream to serve the nation. You had a dream to be an civil service officer.You left the job for that.You took up the challenge in Delhi.But, now you are down because no one bothers to call you.Hence, you feel lonely here.Stop this bullshit will you and get on with life.

If you have dream protect it.And, stop giving lame reasons.Its up to you to do it or not and take responsibility for your failure. And, own your failures.